Meditating on Scripture

Finding comfort in times of suffering

Meditation isn’t just for yogis or new age mystics. The Bible instructs us to meditate on God’s word and works (Psalm 1, 19, 119, and many more).

When I want to be comforted, or when I’m working out something I don’t understand, it helps to find a scripture and break it down into its component parts, mulling the words over little by little, to see how they feel in my mouth and heart.

My Daddy’s cancer has returned, and it has spread. When my sister called me, I knew before she said anything. I was struggling to know when Joshua and I prayed together, before my parents went into the doctor’s office to hear the report themselves. The Spirit told me and allowed me to grieve a little bit before anyone else knew. Like He told me I’d have children years before they came, before our struggle with infertility or Etta’s Turner Syndrome diagnosis. He knows everything, and He gave me a glimpse.

My mother-in-law has evidence of a brain bleed, and that’s all we know right now. Her doctors have been less forthcoming. So today I’m meditating on a scripture about suffering.

“[W]hatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith—that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead” (Philippians 3:7-11).

Gain as loss. Loss as gain. Surpassing worth of knowing Christ. Things lost as rubbish. Gain Christ. Be found in him. Righteousness through faith. Righteousness depends on faith. Know him. Know the power of his resurrection. Share sufferings. Like death. By any means attain resurrection.

I believe God is a healer. I believe He can make sickness disappear in an instant. But sometimes, that’s not the journey we need to take. Today we’re waiting on a more definitive protocol for my dad. And more information for Joshua’s mom. We pray. And wait.